Time Marches On...

Abby, Natalie and Dolly the Horse

Abby (top) and Natalie

 This is the hard truth.  In less than one month, Natalie and Abby will turn 5 years old.  For the record, I refuse to accept this.  As I did when they were born, I shall dip my feet in the great river of Denile and stay there, say, forever, seeing them always as my little girls.

 

Natalie and Abby

Natalie and Abby

Unfortunately, the news gets worse.  Not only do they turn 5, Natalie and Abby also start kindergarten this year.  And as we have chosen a year-long school, "this year" means mid-July.  So, in less than 3 months, I will ship Natalie and Abby off to school, and probably sit in the car outside the school the whole day in a quivering heap.

Natalie and Abby

Natalie and Abby

I never thought I would be this melodramatic about it, but I am becoming

acutely aware of the fact that my girls are growing up, and

frankly, I don't like it one bit.  I think my real problem is that I'm trying to wrap my mind around the fact that they will actually be going to school.

Abby and Natalie

Natalie and Abby

Abby and Natalie

Somewhere in my mind, I fantasized that I would homeschool the girls and they would be with me forever.  Then, the reality of "me" kicked in, and I realized that just might not work.  (As an aside, I've been dealing with an absurd case of chronic drowsiness to the point of being near comatose at times.  I was literally falling asleep between words as I read to the girls.  I now have "wake-up" medicine that seems to be helping.)  If I were more organized, a better house- keeper, or, recently, simply conscious, maybe I could have done it. But,*sigh*, it seems not to be.

So, now, they must leave me, and I will hate it.  And, then, I shall swim.

Mommy holding Natalie and Abby together for the first time - 7/27/07