Monday, January 14, 2008

Just when you think it's getting better

The 9pm feeding didn't go so well. Natalie ate okay, but Abby was a mess. She's crying and crying. I still think she's teething as she chews constantly on her hands and fingers. But I'm also concerned she has an ear infection. She's been pulling on her left ear. So, it's off to the doctor tomorrow to get her checked out.

It's so hard when she is crying and crying when we try to feed her. I've never seen children cry to NOT eat. When they don't eat we just feel like such failures. And then we worry. Every poor feeding feels like we are one step closer to the g-tube and a childhood of eating problems.

Not to sounds whiny, but, it's just not fair. It's just not fair. We want to be normal with normal eating babies. We want to not struggle with every single feed and feel like life and death depends on how many ml they eat. We wish we could just enjoy our little babies and have a house full of joy.

That said, I know it could be worse. They could be very sick with all kinds of tubes and medical problems. They could also not be here at all. We know we are still very lucky. We don't want to be ungrateful or complain. But, we are tired - so tired - and just want to find some help -for us and our little girls.

1 comment:

Candice Lovett said...

Hello there..found your blog through a link of a link...My girls, too, were preemie. They are now 5, but were born at 25 weeks to the day weighing 1.2 and 1.3 pounds. I want to continue reading your blog, but was compelled to drop you a line and let you know that it DOES get better. They DO grow and the frantic-ness that you may feel on some days just becomes more easy to deal with. My girls are thriving 5 year olds and they are a blessing that i am thankful for every day. feel free to check out my blog whenever.
also i know that Duke has one of the best NICU's around. A good friend of mine was an RT there at Duke for a few years, but no longer lives there. She always bragged about the NICU there!