Welcome to the world of Natalie Kimberly and Abigail Elianna. We were born May 15, 2007 at 26 weeks, 1 day gestation due to Twin to Twin Transfusion Syndrome (TTTS). Natalie was born at 4:09pm at 1lb 5oz (604g) and Abigail at 4:10pm at 1lb 13.5 oz (840g). After spending almost 4.5 months in the NICU, we came home and have grown and thrived. Join Our Journey as we learn and grow!
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Only 366 days til Christmas...
Jo's mom, mema and sister all arrived on the Saturday before Christmas. My mom helped out tremendously, as usual, by cleaning and doing laundry. I promised her that one day she would come and not have to work so hard. She didn't believe me:-) She also cooked Christmas dinner which was good since I had declared I wanted nothing to do with it. If I had been in charge we would have had pizza and chinese food. I'm sure everyone was grateful to mom.
Christmas Eve we went to Aunt Reagan's and Uncle Jeff's for a joint celebration with Ben's parents and Reagan's mom, brother, sister-in-law, sister, and her boyfriend. Oh, and the two dogs and the cat. It was a lot of fun and Reagan prepared a feast. Yum, yum. Again, no cooking for me!
Christmas Eve was also very special as we instituted what I hope will become a yearly tradition. We attended the Christmas Eve 11pm service at Duke Chapel. It was really beautiful. The girls were so good. At first they looked all around and checked everything out. Then Mary Poppins, AKA Auntie Kimmy, managed to get them both to eat and to sleep. They slept through the pipe organ and even the Hallelujah Chorus. It was a beautiful service and a special thrill to be at Duke considering the girls' beginnings. It was also Ben's first time ever seeing the Chapel and he was quite impressed. I do hope this will be a yearly occurrence, although not necessarily at Duke Chapel since we had to get there before 10pm. We always went to Christmas Eve service when I was growing up and I loved it. The 11pm is my favorite. There is something so neat about getting out of church and it's Christmas Day. It's a feeling I love.
Christmas Day was rather quiet. We eventually woke up, hung out and opened presents. We had a lovely dinner prepared by my mom. Ben's parents also dropped by and Grandpa carried out a family tradition by reading the girls "The Night Before Christmas". It was really cute. He held them on his lap and read them the story. They loved it.
Poppy and Nanny arrived later in the evening which means all the grandparents saw the girls on Christmas Day. It really was a great day.
The girls received some greats gifts from everyone. Aunt Kimmy provided a very cool crib mobile with lights, sound, and moving parts. They really seem to like it. Nana AKA Gammy or Grammy (name change:-)) and Mema provided a great rolling toy that encourages children to chase it as they learn to crawl. They also bought the most beautiful Christmas ornaments, although those are mostly for mommy and daddy. Poppy and Nanny are donating money to the girls 529 plan. Grandpa and Ya-Yai got the girls the neatest banks. It counts the money (coins) as you put it in. The kids are going to LOVE them when they are old enough to play with money. They also came with a generous donation to their college fund. Uncle Jeff (NC State grad)and Aunt Reagan (UNC grad), who most certainly picked out the gifts gave the girls their first UNC T-shirts and the cutest onesies with their names on the back and "future tailgater" across the rear end. There were also finger puppets representing her trip to Africa.
Mommy and Daddy did pretty well too. We received a lot of nanny money as well as gift cards for dinners out and the movies. Everyone was very generous and we are very grateful.
Mommy and Daddy didn't do much for the girls this year. There was so little they needed thanks to the generosity of so many before they came home. I am trying to make them special little "lovies" - a stuffed animal/blanket combo patterned after the Lovie brand. I am making them out of a duck and frog (of course). It's slow going, but I'll get them finished eventually.
This Christmas was mostly about being grateful that the girls were home with us to celebrate. It was really wonderful having all our family around. I know next year will be really fun as the girls will be old enough to open their own presents.
As we celebrated the birth of Christ, we could not help but be reminded of the miraculous birth - and survival - of Natalie and Abigail. I sometimes read or hear stories of other 26-weekers and am constantly reminded of how incredibly fortunate and blessed we are. God has been so good to us. Above all, He has loved us so much that he sent his Son to guide and teach and save us. I am so, so glad He did.
Monday, December 24, 2007
My Own Etiquette Hell
One of the best sections is the "Thank You Notes" section. You will be gloriously, wickedly appalled and delighted. Unfortunately, this is where I fall into my own etiquette hell. I'm afraid I have fallen behind in my thank you note writing. To all who have yet to receive your - I'm very sorry. I really am working on them. You will get one eventually, I promise. We really do appreciate all the gifts and cards we have received and we want to thank everyone.
If you are still thinking bad thoughts about me, check out the Thank You Note section on Etiquette Hell and I promise you will realize I'm not that bad:-)
Our babies have found their voices
Something is up with Abby. My personal opinion is that she is getting a tooth. When we try to feed her, she has taken to screaming and crying. She hasn't been eating very well the past few days. Let's see, since we messed things up by trying the #2 nipple actually. Hmmm. I really do think there's something wrong - either a new tooth or ear ache or something. Or she developed quite an aversion to food - which is very bad. Hopefully it's just a phase. We have the only babies I know that cry when they HAVE to eat instead of crying when they are hungry.
Little Natalie is doing slightly better. At least she's not screaming every time. But, she's not sucking well and her volumes are down as well.
I think we have decided to ignore anything else the doctor says. We'll just smile and nod and go home and keep doing what we do. Of course, we don't have another appointment for a while so maybe by then we'll have everything under control and they won't need to offer any advice.
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Three Steps Forward - Two Steps Back
BUT - I'm beginning to feel like every time we visit the SICC, we take two steps back. We always seem to be doing pretty well when we show up. Then, they give us a new idea or new instruction and next thing you know, we are going backwards.
Our newest setback involves, as always, feeding. We have been doing really good. The girls have been taking 80mls about 80% of the time. The visits to the pediatrician showed great weight gain. We were quite excited. I will admit that the girls have been throwing up a bit more. I thought it was due to the increased volume and we not burping well. Sometimes, we knew it was our fault. There were definately times when we would try to force down the last few mls and we would cause them to gag and throw up. The girls have also been choking a little bit with their feeds. It sort-of comes and goes really. There were a few days when they were doing really, really well not choking. Then they would have a few days of difficulty.
Well, when I shared all this with Amanda (the Speech Therapist who is really the sweetest thing ever), she was concerned - especially with the choking. Her suggestion was to start using the #2 Dr. Brown nipple instead of the #3 nipple. The #2 nipple is slower. Okay. We'll try it.
Well, once again, it's been a disaster. The girls just can't suck hard enough to drink enough. Since using the #2, they've had less 400mls per day. That is no where near enough. So, once again, we had scrapped the doctor-prescribed plan and gone back to what works - the #3 nipple. For the last two feeds, they have eaten much better. We will be more careful and try to keep them from choking as much.
Other than that, the visit was good. Abby even made the growth curve! She's now at 10%. Natalie is almost on the curve. Abby weighed in at 11.8lbs and Natalie 10.5lbs. They are getting longer too. Abby is 22.5 inches and Nat 22 inches even.
Also on the good side, the clinic was able to give us lots of free cans of Neosure formula. They also included two coupons for two frees CASES of formula. With my milk production still woefully low, this really comes in handy.
I really do love the doctors, ST, and support staff at the clinic. But, it really seems like each trip becomes an exercise in futility.
Well, it's 12:30am and I hear babies grunting on the monitor. It's time to make the donuts:-)
Saturday, December 15, 2007
Doctor and Feeding Update
Thursday: Eye doctor - ROP check-up
It was a great appointment. Abby's eyes checked out completely mature. They look like full term babies' eyes. She doesn't have to be seen again for 6 months! Natalie also had a good report. She has one that is mature and one that is still stage 1, Zone 3. She will have another check-up in 6 weeks.
Both girls are still at risk for other issues, like lazy eye, even after the ROP is gone. We just have to watch for any odd eye activity and they will continue to see the eye doctor regularly. But, it was a great report and we are very pleased.
Friday: Pediatrician - the dreaded weigh-in
I declare - these girls have their weights watched more closely than a wrestler. The news was good though.
Abby weighed in at 11lbs 4oz! Her last weight two weeks ago was 10 lbs 10oz, so she's gained 8oz which is great. It's still a little less than desired, (12oz would have been better) but it's still great.
Natalie did even better. She weighed 10lb 4oz, up 12oz from 9lbs 8.4 oz! That's terrific!
Since they are doing so well, we are going to take a few days and try a 3 hour feeding schedule. They need to eat about 80mls each time for it to work. They've been taken 70-75ml pretty consistently. The worst time of day is in the morning. They just refuse to eat. Usually they eat well for Ben at 6 or 7am. You would think they would since they haven't eaten on 5-6 hours. But, sometimes, they still only eat 50-60mls. Then, they usually refuse to eat at 8am. We've been getting up at 11am and then only because my guilt propels me out of bed. I try to feed them and they STILL don't want to eat. They only really get going in the afternoon.
Hopefully, we can get them started well, and we can start the 3 hour thing. Feeding every two hours is getting pretty tiresome. The good news is that the plan has been working. The girls are growing and gaining weight. We do have another Duke Clinic appointment next week and this time I'm looking forward to it.
Santa Claus is Coming to Town
So, this is the girls´ first Christmas so, of course, we have to do all the traditional Christmas stuff.
Phase One: Meet Santa
Our plan last Friday was to be on Santa´s doorstep at the mall when he arrived at 10am. We thought this would help minimize germs. Ben had the day off so it should have been no sweat. But, you know what they say about the best laid plans... By the time we fed them, dressed them in their adorable little Christmas dresses, and I pumped, we managed to get to the mall about 11:45am.
Parking near Macy's, we made our way into the mall. As I walked beside Ben as he pushed our tank of a double stroller, I was grinning from ear to ear. Ben actually looked over at me and said I was beaming. It was a big moment for us. This was our first real public outing (besides doctor's appointments). I felt like we were such the little family. It was the kind of moment you dream about when you imagine having kids. It was perfect.
We wondered our way through the department store discovering early on that needing to use the elevator to get upstairs resigns you to some dark corner of department store no-mans-land. We cruised through the mall making our way towards Santa. It seemed fitting to stop for cookies, and besides, I was hungry:-) We reached Santa's doorstep at 12:50 and encountered something unexpected: pagers. Apparently, you get a pager and they buzz you when it's time to get in line just like at a restaurant. We actually arrived just before Santa's lunch break, so we then had to wait an hour before getting in line.
We used the time well. We found a little table within site of Santa's Winter Wonderland, and feed the girls. As expected, we garnered a lot of attention. Going out in public with twins is really quite amusing. On the internet boards I visit, it's often mentioned and some people get irritated and annoyed. One really must maintain a sense of humor. We get a lot of, "are they twins?" Well, yes, there are two of them. "How old are they". Well, they are almost 7 months old" (pause for strange looks),"but they were preemies, so they are actually about 3 1/2 - 4 months old". (big nods of understanding - sometimes with more detailed questions to follow). "Are they girls or boys?" Two girls (sometimes their little dresses aren't visible). Then there are the general comments along the lines of "double trouble", "you have your hands full", etc. We did see two other sets of twins including some boys with their stay-at-home dad. We chatted with one mother for a little while which was kind of nice.
About 1:50, we were buzzed, and took our place in line for Santa. We didn't have to wait long since we were 3rd in line. Santa was great. The girls were perfect. Natalie slept through the whole thing and Abigail was adorable. For the "official" picture, they even were able to make Abby laugh. We forked over the $20 for 2 5x7's and took a few with our own camera. They originally said we could only take 3 pictures???, but once they knew we were buying some, they were more agreeable. I will say the "official" picture was amazing. I'm going to try to scan it in and will post it later if I can.
By now, it's almost 2:30, and everyone (meaning mom and dad) is getting tired. We negotiate our way back through the mall and take our little Santa babies home.
It was really a fun little outing. We felt like a normal family doing normal family things. When we do "normal" things, it always seems a little surreal to me. I get nearly giddy with happiness. As a nanny, I spent a lot of time taking other people's kids to do really fun things. I would always imagine what it would be like when I did the same things with my own children. I am finally getting to live that dream, and it leaves me deliriously happy.
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
a little teaser
My computer is running out of energy, so let me just say that updates and pictures will be coming soon.
Stay tuned - and thanks for checking in.
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
We're famous
Well, I actually received several emails from them stating they researched it and only found one other documented case of di/di TTTS. They think it occurs if at the placenta is differentiating at the exact moment the egg splits (or something like that). I was quite impressed they emailed me back.
Shortly after that, I received a call from the editor of the magazine. She wanted to speak to me about our situation. I left an email for her to call me since that was easier, and today she did!
She is writing an article about it for the January/February issue! Isn't that neat? She agrees that twin pregnancies should all be closely monitored.
I think it's neat that our girls could help make a difference in the medical community at large. We were lucky our OB had us do so many ultrasounds. If she had not - who knows what might have happened. I'm hopeful that close monitoring will become the standard for all twin pregnancies.
What I Love About My Ben
*I love the way he gets up at 6am to feed the girls.
* I love the way he got mad when people were visiting and got up at 6am instead of him. He felt like he was missing his "special time" with the girls and wanted to do it himself.
* I love the way he works hard all day at his job so I can stay home with the girls and we can have everything we need.
* I love the way he comes home for lunch and walks straight in and grabs a bottle to feed a baby before he even sits down to eat.
* I love the way he has a hard time leaving after lunch because he is playing with his daughters.
* I love the way he looks at his daughters with so much love and tenderness.
* I love the way Natalie was smiling up at him tonight - she loves her Daddy so much.
* I love the way he tells me all the time how grateful he is that I work so hard to pump milk for our babies. He is so encouraging and thankful and supportive.
* I love the way he walks in after a hard day at work and immediately begins to feed a baby.
* I love the way missed us when we went to my mom's for a week. By Wednesday night, he had tears in his eyes.
* I love the way he says "my girls".
* I love the way he gets excited when the girls leave him "presents" in their diapers.
* I love the way he doesn't expect me to clean(much) or have a home-cooked dinner waiting for him when he walks in.
* I love the way he thinks I have the hardest job in the world. He's always saying how he could never stay home all day and he is so glad I want to.
* More than anything, I love being on of "his girls."
Monday, December 3, 2007
Daddy is tired
As Johelen had mentioned previously, I took the girls for the day to my parents house in Goldsboro. The girls had a great time with Grandma and Grandpa and even Great Grandma. They all took turns with the feeding, although Daddy had to show his 133t sk1lz at times. I know Grandpa was a little frustrated when both girls refused to drink all of their milk. In his words, "they won". But they did an excellent job and I even got to go to bed at a reasonable hour. Thank you Mom and Dad!
Then on Sunday we took the girls to their first church service at Trinity Baptist where my parents attend. Lots of little ole ladies oooooing and ahhhing at the girls and a good time was had by all. Except Abby who proceeded to uncharacteristically fuss right as the preacher started speaking. Guess we'll have to spike the breast milk with some holy water ;)
I'm glad that wifee was able to have some time off. She certainly deserves it with all the work she does. Hopefully I'll be able to take the girls more often, although Grandpa has got to work on his feeding skills.
Saturday, December 1, 2007
Heavyweight Champions of the World!
In this corner...weighing in at 9 lbs 8.4oz - Miss Natalie!
In the opposite corner...weighing in at 10 lbs 10oz...Abigail!
Isn't that fantastic? They both gained almost 9ounces in the 7 days since their last appointment. We are very happy. The two-hour plan is working, and we finally feel like we don't have to worry ourselves to pieces any more.
Mommy's Day Off
After kissing the girls and Ben good-bye at 8am, I did what all free Mommy's do. I went back to bed. Until 2pm. It was beautiful. Mommy Day began with the only baby-related activity I have this weekend - pumping. Then there was Chinese food and movies. Currently I am drinking champagne and bonbons. Okay, not really. I have chocolate covered strawberries and the cheapest champagne I could find.
I finally have the time to do some things that needed doing - like paying bills, blogging, and putting together the girls baby announcement. What I'm NOT doing is cleaning.
I miss my babies (and Ben), but it really nice having some Jo time.
ps - What is a bonbon anyway? Has anyone ever had one? In the interest of science and trivia, I did a little research.
bonbon - In Europe a bonbon is a candy, the simplest form of bonbon is essentially sugar coated almonds. In the modern era the use of almonds as a centre has declined, and a bonbon can be any confection with a fondant center, often with fruit or nuts, covered in fondant or chocolate, or any other confection consisting of a sweet centre covered by a loose sugar or flavoured coating.[1][2] Although not technically a bon bon in the conventional sense, the term is also used in respect of Fruit Bon Bons, a hard boiled sweet with a soft fruit centre.
Bonbon is also the French and German word for candy.
A bonbon is also the brand name for an American sweet, consisting of a small ball of ice cream, roughly the size of a cherry, coated in chocolate. Sold in cardboard buckets, they are rarely seen today. Bonbons can also be more like truffles, with some type of filling inside.
Just thought you would want to know.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Loving through Lexapro
If there were ever a poster-child candidate for PPD, it would be me. With a long history of depression since childhood and a very serious episode 4 years ago that resulted in several hospitalizations, I was a PPD-disaster waiting to happen. When I was very sick, I even doubted whether I should even have children. As there is a genetic component to mental illness, I obsessed over passing on this illness to my children and ruining their lives. Then I read something in a book about parents with mental illness are the most capable of recognizing it in their children and intervening early. That made me feel better.
When I wasn't questioning my right to pro-create, I imagined myself a hormonal, crazy mess during pregnancy. I envisioned myself waddling around the psych ward crying hysterically.
Fortunately, they make this wonderful little drug called Lexapro. It was a life-saver. Since October 2003, I have been depression free! When discussing pregnancy, there was a discussion of whether or not to continue the medication. Research indicates that it is safe during pregnancy and breastfeeding, but you never know. But, there's always a fine line between the possible side effects of the medication and the risks of maternal depression and its effect on the baby. It was decided that with my history, staying on the medication was for the best. There are a few side effects. The one I notice the most is that I tend to not be very emotional. I don't cry very easily or get very emotional. It makes me sad sometimes because I feel like I'm missing out on some of the special bonding moments of motherhood. I feel like I should feel more. For instance, when I look at my little babies, I want to cry, but I can't. I just seem to be almost too balanced - too even-keeled. Sometimes I wish I could just lose it emotionally.
I always wondered what it would be like to live life without medication. I'd been doing so well, I began to wonder if maybe I was cured. Perhaps I had resolved any issues that contributed to the depression or maybe I just outgrew it. I always wanted to see what would happen if I stopped taking it. Now, I know.
By no real design, I sort-of stopped taking my medicine. It wasn't really intentional. I just forgot. I'd miss a day here, two there. I was a little busy taking care of babies. Then my prescription ran out. I'd call in to fill it, and couldn't find time to go get it. So, a few missed days turned into every day for a week or more. And then I started to lose it. Not in the nice, sappy, crying over the sweetness of my babies kind of way, but in the "I want to sit in my car and cry" kind-of way. However, before people freak out, it also wasn't the "drown my kids in the tub" way either. I was just a little - overwhelmed.
So, Ben picked up my meds, I popped a few pills, and now all is right with the world. Mommy is no longer a mess, Ben is no longer scared, and the babies don't know a thing.
So. I always wondered what would happen if I stopped taking my medicine. What I've learned is that I'm one of those people that needs medicine to stay sane. Sure, I'd love to experience a more "normal" range of emotions and have a few weepy mommy moments, but it's much nicer being able to wake up every morning and be able to face the day. My Ben, my girls, and myself are better for it.
God bless Lexapro.
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
We've been saved!
My sister, dad, and mom are suppling a nanny for the next three weeks to help us out around the house! The best part is that it's my neighbor across the street. Kara and her husband, David, have been so sweet and I'm thrilled to get to know them better. Kara is also pregnant and due in April so we have the start of a little play group! She's already a nanny for another family so I feel so comfortable and happy to have someone with her experience to help me out. We have up to 10 hours a week and I can't wait. There's so much I need to get caught up on.
I've also decided to take a more relaxed approach to pumping. My milk seems to be returning a bit, but now that we've found a formula they will eat, I'm going to be okay if they get a few bottles of formula or half and half. For my own sanity, I need to spend more time with the girls and less time pumping.
To my wonderful family - and awesome sister who dreamed up this idea- thank you, thank you , thank you!!!
Monday, November 26, 2007
Getting better
Most of you know, but my sister just happens to be a twin specialist. She specializes in sleep training, but is an expert in all things babies and especially twins. She has worked with hundreds of babies. The help, advice and peace of mind she has given us has been invaluable. I can honestly say I don't know what we would have done without her - especially this past weekend. Sister, we love you so much, and thank you, thank you thank you.
Sister has been incredible at helping feed the girls. Their totals are creeping up and hitting new heights. Check this out:
Nat
M - 405mls
T - 390
W - 355 + breast feeding
Th - 438
F - 575
S - 540
S - 543 so far and one feed left
Abby
M - 502
T - 518
W - 395 + BF
Th - 475
F - 648
S - 593
S - 630 So far and one feed left!!!
They are doing so amazing. They are starting to take 70-75ml for some feeds - especially Abby who has apparently decided she didn't like Natalie getting close to her in weight. At this rate, she will pull way ahead again. When they start taking that much for 4-5 feeds a day, we are going to try an adapted 3 hour schedule. We'll probably do some 2-hours and some 3-hours. Eventually we can move to a 3 hour schedule.
I am so proud of them for doing so well. The new formula, NeoSure, is a godsend. My milk is returning so we are primarily just adding the powder back on top of the breast milk as before. They may get a bottle of formula every now and then, but we are mostly back to breast milk. It's so relieving to know we have an option if my milk takes another vacation.
I am so happy about the girls progress, but there is a part of me that is irritated as well. Not at them, of course, but at the doctors. I am so mad we tubed them those 4 days last week. It was a miserable experience and just sent the girls backwards. The fact that it only took a few days for the girls to get back to and then surpass their previous totals tells me had we NOT tubed them, we would have upped their totals that much sooner. I just wish we had trusted our instincts.
Speaking of, we received a voice mail from Elianna's dad yesterday. Kimberly had lunch with he and Elianna and was telling him about the girls, their eating, weight gain, and the possible g-tube situation. He happens to be a doctor and told her they usually don't worry too much about weight until babies start losing it. He left the most kind voice mail stating what great parents Ben and I were and how great the girls are doing. He said we should continue to trust our instincts. It was very kind and a wonderful reassurance that we are doing okay. It was also nice to hear from a doctor that we aren't causing them brain damage. Thanks so much Adam - you really made my day:-)
Well, it's almost time to feed - again. Sheew - I'll be so glad when we can move to the 3 hour schedule. Feeding every two hours is tough. I always feel like the Dunkin Donuts man. There used to be a commercial which showed him dragging himself out of bed and to work at some ungodly hour muttering, "time to make the donuts, time to make the donuts". That's us, every hour, "time to feed the babies, time to feed the babies". And for me, if I'm not doing that, "time to make the milk, time to make the milk". Hmmm, kind-of makes me want some donuts...
Saturday, November 24, 2007
New Worst Day - Friday after Thanksgiving
First, as mentioned on a previous post - my milk is on vacation. As of this morning, we had one reserve frozen bag left and I had to get up at 7am to pump for the 8am and I barely had enough. In fact, there wasn't enough for the 6am, and Ben had to add formula to it which affected how well they ate this morning. We have determined that the girls hate the Elecare. They have been doing so much better drinking straight breast milk. I have been worried sick about what we would do if my milk goes away and they are stuck on formula they one: hate and nearly refuse to drink, and two: it costs $35 a can.
Second, we had a peds appointment at 9am. I was kind of excited because I felt the girls had done well, especially Abby, and I was excited to see their weights. I was also apprehensive since I knew the dr was in favor of tubing. I have this thing about not wanting to get into trouble. It's very juvenile, but I hate to do things wrong or have people disappointed in me in any way. So, I was a little anxious.
Abby weighed in really well - 10lb 1.2oz. She's gained 6 oz since last Thursday, 11/15. This is great. Natalie, however, had only gained 100grams, just over 3 oz. Ben was with me and we told the dr how much they were eating and she said it still wasn't enough. I told her I'd email Dr. Malcolm to see if he wanted to see us sooner than three more weeks. Ben would later say that he didn't sense any disapproval or major concern. All I heard was, "they aren't eating enough".
We did ask about switching to a different formula and she gave us two different ones to try out. Of course, when we went to Babies R Us, they didn't have either.
When we got home, we walked in and it was just chaos. Our house isn't that big and with my dad, Peg, sister, step-sister, Elianna, and 2 babies, it was a mess. I tired to pump which of course yielded very little. Then I started cleaning the kitchen and things just got worse and worse. I'm not sure how, but soon there was yelling and tears and I hid in my room again.
In the end, we kicked everyone out of our house. Well, it wasn't that harsh (I hope!). We already had a hotel room for Friday and Saturday nights that we had planed to escape to at least one night. Instead, we decided what would really help was to stay in our own house and get things done. So, Dad, Peg, Loren and Kim took the girls on their first overnight and hotel stay. It was wonderful for us. Ben went to bed at 8:30 and slept until 8 the next morning. I organized some baby clothes and pumped a lot. I didn't go to bed until 2:30am but I felt rested the next morning.
The only reason this was able to work was because Kimberly found the Neosure at Walgreens. In a stroke of luck, the girls loved it. Since I was out of milk, they could take it to the hotel and give them formula. It was a godsend - had they refused the formula, they wouldn't have been able to leave.
Saturday night everyone came back to our house and we were the ones who left. They had all gotten us gift certificates to the movies and to dinner. We didn't have time for dinner, but we caught our first movie in months - "American Gangster". Then we went back to the hotel. It was very nice to get away.
The girls seemed to enjoy their special time with Poppy, Nanny, Aunt Kimmy and Aunt Loren. I was so great to leave them in good hands. We can't thank them enough. We really needed a break and a chance to relax. We are so blessed to have a family that is so supportive and willing to help us in any way. We love you guys so much. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
Got milk?
Most people are coming down on the side of stress, and I suppose that's possible. The problem is the less milk I get the more stressed I get. I read something about the thyroid affecting milk production. I did have an under-active thyroid that really needs rechecking. If my milk doesn't return by Monday, I'll probably see a doctor.
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Girls' First Thanksgiving
I actually wasn't especially stressed about Thanksgiving. So what if the house is a mess, the kitchen floor gross and 12 people are coming over. Whatever. I refused to let it bother me. I had my family to cook so it wasn't just me and Ben. We didn't even get started until nearly 1pm. We did a ham and a hen and a bunch of sides. Ben's mom brought some things and Reagan brought several desserts including pecan pie - Ben's favorite. My sister made some low-cal, splenda pumpkin pie which was quite good. I figured we'd eat when it was ready so it didn't stress me much at all. In the end we ate around 6ish and it was all delicious. The good thing about having a dinner at your house is that you get to keep all the leftovers! Mmmmmmmm.
In the end, we had 13 people - and two little people. We were joined by Ben's parents, grandmother, Jeff and Reagan, and Reagan;s dad. On my side we had my dad and step-mom, my step-sister, Loren, my sister, and our little friend Elianna who just turned 11 and who Abigail is named after. Elianna's dad, Adam, also joined us for a little while. We missed my mom and grandma though. It was kind-of crazy and crowded but mostly good. The girls were very well entertained.
It's hard to believe Natalie and Abigail's first Thanksgiving has come and gone. We dressed them in the most beautiful fall dresses my mom bought for them. They were so beautiful and looked like such big girls. They are really the best babies. All those people and they never really fussed or cried. We made sure they had some down time and quiet naps, but they did so well.
All in all, it was a wonderful day, and we truly have so much for which to be thankful. God is very good, and we are very grateful.
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Our plan is working!
Natalie and Abby are doing great. Abigail has hit 500mls yesterday and will again today. That's the most she's ever taken! We also weighed the girls tonight. I ordered a scale last week (which my sister graciously paid for - thanks sis!), so I could keep up with their weight gain. I weighed them Saturday night, and Abby has gained 4 ounces since then!! That's incredible! On our scale, she has now hit 10 pounds!! We are so proud of her. Natalie is also making progress and is hitting 400ml. She has gained almost 2 ounces since Saturday. She is now 8lbs 14oz!
They are also taking larger volumes. We started giving them just breastmilk (no Elecare) since they seem to like the taste better. Well, I assume that since they seem to eat more of it. Natalie has taken several 60ml feeds and Abby 75ml and 80mls! It's all very exciting. We have high hopes that by next week this time we will be hitting our target totals.
Metric System Solved!
Here's where I went wrong:
Example: When I (ie. the computer) convert Natalie birth weight of 604 grams directly to pounds, I get 1.33 lbs. When I read that, I read 1 lb, 3.3 ounces. However, the .33 part is not ounces, it's .33 of a pound. Now, if pounds were in unites of 10 like the metric system, my initial reaction would have been correct. But, pounds, of course, are in units of 16. So, the .33 of a pounds has to be converted to ounces through a unit of 16. When you convert .33 pounds into ounces you get 5.28 ounces. So, that puts Natalie's birth weight at 1 lb 5.28 ounces. Just like the hospital said.
It sounds silly, but I'm really glad I understand it all now. It was really bugging me that the numbers weren't working out.
Thanks, Richard. Now, we now who's doing the math homework. I think I'll stick to the liberal arts like religion and history.